So yesterday....
was a day filled with tears and lacking answers. I believe god is doing somethign in my heart. People looked at me, and asked if I was okay, if I was feeling down,and I had no words. no answer as to why the tears kept flowing from my face. And it felt different in the various places I went, yet still more tears.
I woke up in the morning, and i didn't know where I was going, but I knew I had to go. So I got dressed, walked out of the house and got in the car. I Ended up At Chanali's Church. Not sure why I was there, but when I saw her, I gave her a hug and tears began to flow. so weird..and throughout the service , tears. The pastor preached on Daniel chapter 1, and the verse confirmed something I heard a few months back but didn't want to embrace. Well, now I have. 3 years.
I left Chan's around 1 so I could go to van outreach, and as I drove past my old church, something said stop and go inside. So i went in to find, some of my kids, Bilal , Derrel, Kevin, Maliq, some of the saints, and alot of LOVE.
I proceeded to go to the Rivendell (mission house) and i found members of my church, sitting in the living room. " Hi sis Ashley " says Tom. then Norm and Richy Greeted me as well.. I then begin Blinking to hold back the tears. Jeanne came in with a few interns, and joy! It was so good.
We get on the van, and jump out greet and pray with several, fo ra while i felt liek i was just there, but i continued to pray for God to move and have his way, claiming the territory as we drove.
Then Tom says, hey Ashley , let's go talk to these two over here.
That's when I met Mindy.
There's Something about Mindy..
She looked soo tired. So tired of trying to do this thing on her own, and in her own strength. She needed to ehar the truth. That she can't. And that she's beautiufl and God is not dissapointed in her. He wants her brokenness, just like he wants mine. When we are weak He is made strong.
I told Mindy I'd be waiting for her between 6 - 8 AM at the house, if she wanted to call.
At 6:30 AM the phone rings. She's calling me, saying her mother is dropping her off,and she's so excited!
Glory to the Lamb!
Let's Keep Mindy in prayer, that the birds don't try to eat the seed. Hope to update on her soon.
Keep the tears coming Lord. Do what you do.
While I don't know exactly why, I feel like it was Him. Not my will but your's be done..
