So Forgetful

Sometimes  I can get so frustrated , when people are not there for me when I need them to be.  It's the silliest thing, I was annoyed about and so angry, that my friend didn't fulfill the role that I desired for them to in that moment.  Then I heard this song,and was so convicted.

It's so funny, how forgetful we can be sometimes.

Just tonight in our women's group we talked about how, Man will FAIL us, but God NEVER fails..and He's literally the ONLY one who won't fail us.  He is our peace, He is our strength, He is our help in the time of need.  God chooses to Use man, in various ways. and one is to LOVE each other an I'm not taking anything away from that.  But He is the only reason we are able to ever receive love form another person. Because God is the Love ..God is the Good , that we were experiencing, God is our Peace.  I was so sad, bc it just shows even more how jacked up and selfish I can be.. How jacked my heart still is that I would get so angry and annoyed from a fellow brother. So Broken.

Here Comes the Neighborhood...

Talk about inspiring. What if we put God on display like this?
HCTN TRAILER from Here Comes the Neighborhood on Vimeo.

Worship

So the other night, I really was THIRSTY to just Worship my God.. Like unusually antsy and really itching to be in His presence. First i tried Dancing, to some music.. but then nearly passed out because my room can get really Hot.. I nearly passed out.. then I tried to play my guitar..which was fine, but i only know a few songs, and wasn't in the mood to sing them. I got up .put my hands in the air.. got on my knees.. tried to sing..and then my phone rang..it was my friend David asking me to come see his house.. I'm like.. okay. I'll stop by for a second, but i REALLY want to spend some time with my Daddy! I love David bc he was like, oh you can bring your dad too! I was like.. i meant God .. I want to spend some time with God.. anywho.. I put on my shoes, looking a hot mess, but it was all good, bc he's my brother. and i saw this awesome house that God has given him.. As he showed me each room, I was just OVERWHELMED with praise and thankfulness to God.. for than tangible provision and blessing he has given my brother.. it's crazy..like my heart was just so full! HE showed me the whole house, and Praise was just on my lips.


It was so cool, then I was about to leave to walk back home, and David said..hey let me walk you..so we head around the corner..and we here this baptist church on the corner, singing.. they were going IN!! David and I looked at each other and were like.. let 's go check it out. So we walk across the street and see this girl leaving the church , we ask her what's going on, she says " oh we're having revival this week" ..come on now!! I went inside and the worship leader was singing.. " wonderful , counselor , mighty God.. " Immediately i stood up..and just felt God's presence ,, even more, on top of the overwhelming feelings that i felt while thanking him for this house. it was just what I needed. finally I ended up going back into my room.. just me and my empty room and the Lord.


Then I prayed and talked to God. Lord I just want to worship you. And something dropped in my Spirit. Draw. I found a picture of this beautiful little girl, that i met at one of the orphanages in Haiti. And i just looked at it for a while. Then i began to draw.. this is actually the first picture that I've drawn in quite a while. Pencil to paper, and it felt so good. it felt like worship! My prayer is that I stop trying to put God in a box. I want my life to be poured out as an offering to him. So whatever I do, whether is be praying, singing, dancing, drawing, eating, running, talking, walking.. that I do it as unto the Lord and not to men, realizing.. that this is the worship He desires. Offering our bodies as living sacrifices. Whatever that means, and however it looks. Because it often looks different. Don't you just Love Him. thanks for the Golden Nuggets God. Amen..