So, Yesterday. During prayer, I felt like I did when I was in that dream that I was in Haiti. I looked down, and I was topless... EXPOSED. This is a very vulnerable place. Tonight, I went to the Regional Prayer Meeting, and felt this release, while we prayed, for the city, and nation... and for ourselves... as soldiers. Lord, raise up Your soldiers to take on the battle, you've empowered us. I feel like, the deeper I go, the harder cry out, the more and more of my crap, is in there.. the more of my flesh is in there.. like.. geez.. still more Lord. We pray, Lord empty me.. but I never realized just How much of ME is in the mix.
I just want to be completely... POURED OUT .. for real.. like.. I don't want to do things anymore, jut because I'm supposed to. I want my responses to be REAL authentic heart responses.. I want my action to truly be motivated by Love. The love of the FATHER.. to push me to Love through action..
Right now I feel like I purged a whole lot (that I didn't even know was there) I'm wondering how much more.. but it's a strength that I can feel, like, letting go of that stuff, built me up.. it's weird but I like it.
The Lord has really been dealing with me abou t worship. Worshipping in Spirit and in truth. Tonight, I lead worship with some of my friends, and it was awesome. during practice, I could feel the Spirit soooo heavy like, literally weighing on me.., but its crazy how much of a press it was, while we were in front of people .. the enemy was busy.. How do we get COMPLETELY free from that .. performance, showy, religious stuff..yah know ?
I've been blessed to have so much Godly community, The Lord is really showing me, the variety of believer's that I'm connected to. It's such a blessing... and each week, there are more women, He's sending to pour into me. It's so exciting. What will tomorrow hold?
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