Day 7

Okay, so this blogging everyday thing, REALLY is alot harder than I thought it would be.

But God is Sovereign...

My struggle these past few days has been consitency, and dilegence in my seeking. I desire to be more engulfed in the Word. Perhaps, I'm going to cut some of the more social aspects of my life down for this season. We shall see. So all weekend, I had this song in my head and the Lord told me to dance to it! check out the Lyrics

" who taught the sun, where to sit, in the morning,

and who told the ocean, you can only come this far,

and who told the moon, where to hide to evening,

who's words alone can catch a falling star?"

I KNOW.. MY REDEEMER LIVES!!!

Seeking out the truth about FAITH, and what it is.. Im learning and seeing, how important this word literally is, in regards to MY FAITH.. to my salvation.. to my confidence in Christ.. I made a list FAITHLESS vs. FAITHFUL..and relaly just asked the Lord to teach me about what it means to be both. I read Hebrews 11.. and in the first two verses it plainly tells you what FAITH is.. Faith is being SURE and CERTAIN.. there's NO room for doubt when it comes to faith.. I've been praying against my always seeking confirmation and validation through other people. I find it ahard sometimes to stand on my own convictions about things, while at the same time, I have this Hard outer shell, that goes hard, and can even be confrontational at times.. Hebrews 11: 2 .. By faith we understand that th universe was formed ar God's command, so tha what is seen was not made out of what is visible. That's HUGE, to really walk in the understanding that what is around us, was not made or birthed by some material God made it. and it even takes FAITH to believe that..

The next verse that stuck out to me was 2 Peter 1: 5 .. For hti svery reason, make every effort to add to you faith, goodness and to goodness knowledg, and to knowledge self control...

ADD to YOUR FAITH... you can't ADD to somethign you don't have.. This verse offers a guard against falling, liek.. this is how you can stand, and you ADD to the faith you have. Faith is like a muscle, it grows and it get's stronger. we can BUILD ontop of it.

What does it mean to TRULY rely on GOD? Will I pray the Prayer, Lord.. I ONLY want to rely on you ..Or LORD build my faith.. it' scrazy.. and yes, i prayed the prayer, but to think.. who knows how that specific prayer wil be answered.. it will probably mean harder times, some type of pruning, some type of struggle, that pushes me to that place. But I want ot be like Paul, who delighted in the hardships, and counted it a priveledge to be persecuted fo rthe Gospel.. How does someone really get to THAT point..a place of beign Wrecklessly abandoned.. I LOVE that phrase. right, it's sounds like a real christian..yah know.?? But it's like how do I REALLY get there?

uh oh . I can feel the itch.. I NEED TO PAINT.. Hopefully I will be able to post something soon.. Love you and thank you for your prayers.. Please continue to lift up CLAY..COmplete Healing..nd if you know a prayer warrior, and if you are one, please come into agreement,and cry out on behalf of this young man..