Dream -

Last night..

I had a dream , we were in this bus, driving on a road.. not sure where we were , where we were coming from , or where we were going.. but we drove over this lady... didn't flatten or kill her, but she was curled over in the middle of the road, and the bud road over her.. after , we looked back, and she rolled over into the grass, still alive, but just trying to get out of the middle of the road. She reminds me of how the woman with the issue of blood. My heart cried out for her, yet we didn't stop the car. I was hurriedly trying to record the street signs so I could come back to check on the woman, after we (on the bus) reached our destination...

My question i s, why didn't we stop right then and there? What could have possibly been so important, that none of the believer's on the bus, spoke up for us to stop and care for the broken woman in the road? Why didn't I speak up? But was so ready to go back on my own.

Perhaps I didn't want to bother others on the bus to stop to Love.. it's wasn't on the agenda.. But Love should be the agenda.. right?

Day 89

So Yesterday..

I CRASHED...

not only could i not get up.. I didn't want to. When I called my boss, I called out because I was sick, and I literally felt sick... My body was like..no more.. just rest.. just rest..

This is the lesson I feel the Lord has been trying to teach me all along. This might sound crazy, it almost seems that "rest" , I'm in a "Season of rest" , the Lord is saying "rest" ,has been a common thread amongst my Community over this past year. But I can honestly say, that this IS the word.

What I love about my Daddy, is that He always knows EXACTLY what I, Ashley Haley , needs to get it.. to HEAR Him, to understand.. like,, yesterday I crashed.. I had to get to the end of myself, in order to simply REST. In order to do that, I had to shut down everything.. my part I had to TRUST that everything that NEEDED to be done would get done, and spend alone time, literally resting in His sovereignty.

His arms, are the strongest arms I've ever felt. The Strongest arms, I've ever leaned on.. And what I love even more, Is how He's Always there, His unfailing Love.

Lately, I've felt pretty disappointed in myself, in regards to how I'm practicing the disciplines, as well as some physical disciplines. I haven't eaten tomatoes in a week.. perhaps this seems like something simple, but for me.. it's huge, and important. But I've found some FREEDOMS all at the same time. I believe what I am experiencing , is the FREEDOM in Christ. The RELIGIOUS Spirit, is not one that is of God. IT may APPEAR to be, but it really isn't. it's a counterfeit, and the Lord is exposing it within me. And He's given me Freedom in some of the most unorthodox ways, but I appreciate it.

In the Spirit, I can feel alot of things all up in my face, all over the place. My prayer is Lord, I want to HEAR you CLEARLY, I don't want to jump to conclusions, I want to just Trust you... and to know it's you that I'm following. I DON'T KNOW, what's next, But I want to lean on your guiding. Every open door, isn't the one I'm supposed to walk through, please make it plain!

Secondly, something that has been kind of annoying has been everyones opinions. I hear from the Lord, My friends do as well. I believe the Lord will govern us all, as we surrender to Him. What works for one, doesn't work for all. Please just trust that I hear Him too.. Thank you..

I love you Lord.

Thank you for Loving me First...

Goodnight.

Day 80

Jesus is Lord!

The past week has been simply

AMAZING!

This amazing woman of God, a has connected me to the lovely ladies above.. I've learned so much through this woman over the past 8 months. It's pretty crazy actually. I'm just so blessed she has embraced the community, and brought others into it as well. It can be a pretty vulnerable place, yah know? I've learned about rest, about guarding my heart, about being honest with myself, how to think deeper, How important having the word stored up inside and the value of a date with Jesus. SO many lessons, many you don't get, till you are there in that place. But I'm thankful for always feeling that support. Tif, you are amazing..

to be continued..

Day 57

Oh My God is simply Amazing....

So much has happened since my last Log... perhaps I should start with this morning and go back.

So I've been learning finally how to embrace God's sovereignty in my life. realizing, I can't share my pearls with everyone,and that's okay. Sometimes, the Lord tells you stuff for you to know... and to simply REST in Him..

last night I had a dream..

I got on this roller coaster with my mother and my sister Danielle. Normally this would have freaked me out, but this time, I just got on.. braced myself... and buckled in. I leaned back, and the ride started going higher, and i was just captivated by Gods creation.. I saw mountains, and the sky and clouds, and the stars, simply overwhelming... and i just leaned back, and it started going faster, and down hill, then I looked down and i could see the ocean, all of these dolphins jumping and swimming in the ocean. and I was just amazed, and smiling, and i leaned back some more..

(I feel like in this season,I'm to simply rest in God. in my conversation's I've likened this journey to a roller coaster ride,and i typically don't do roller-coasters..I hate the speed, and i come off shaking and trembling, I don't find pleasure in scaring myself. But it's time for ashley to take more risk. I refuse to settle with not TRUSTING God... like, we are called to Trust in Him, and it's in that place where we can begin to follow His leading, His making our paths straight)

there was another part of the dream...

I was at a fair or out door movie and talking to these guys.. The movie was about to come on then I left. and ended up walking past them again, but this time I had my bike.

(end)

This morning and yesterday Morning I saw a rainbow, on my way to work. Whenever i see rainbows, I'm reminded of God's promise... and I just smile. Yesterday the rainbow gave me so much peace, in God's Sovereignty,and HIs promise, that he has a plan for me. and today, while i saw the rainbow, I happened to be listening to 2 Corinthians 1:20 ESV, let me find the actual verse.

For all the promises of God find their Yes in him. That is why it is through him that we utter our Amen to God for his glory.

And I just claimed that verse today, as revelatory in my life.

Day 50

Wednesday Day 50...

God is Sovereign.. He keeps showing me that over and over and Over.. i can't believe it's been so long since my last log, so much has happened. Not to mention, really great weekends, and fun times. Also, a reminder of how OBEDIENCE is so important..

my face is breaking out pretty bad, i also haven't had hearty helpings of tomatoes, nor washed with them in a while.. (Sigh) .. when will she learn..

anywho. i intend on giving a comprehensive more detailed report of what the Lord has been showing me.. just too much to do tonight..

Love you

good night.

day 41

God is sovereign.

Day 37

Joshua always used to say, we are Human Beings.. not Human "Doings"...

it's amazing how quickly, i can forget such truths.

Today was an interesting day. I went to work.. well let me back track a little bit, ever since I got the word " wake up, and answer the call" (remind me I have to ask the Lord more questions in regards to that) getting out of the bed, has been a real struggle! Like seriously.. this morning I was having a weird dream, Sabrina and Robin were in it, we were all at this women's convention or retreat or something..and somebody would say something about the end-times..and they would both look at each other, and make this face.. with their hands up, like striking a pose or something.. it was really weird.. but, I could get up out of the bed.. like, it was a couple times.. I new I was running late, and I just couldn't get up. it was nuts. SOooo I got to work late.. like really late.. and even though I got plenty of sleep last night..super sleepy on the drive in. When I got to work, things flowed pretty smoothly.. no real rushing going on, just flowed, till the COB.

Then I drove home.. and was talking to Lynnette, then i did my Haitian Creole cd. I'm on lesson 5 I think.

anywho.. i was headed to the Rivendell for bible study, we've ben praying for this ladies healing from withdrawl symptoms.. so i was lifting her up among other things.. I met CJ tonight.. got to pray with her, and got into the word a bit, and she got to taste raw cashews for the first time.

uh oh 12:45 sleep time! goodnight!

to be continued

rough word..the Lord gave me revelation tonight (mon) for the dream . rev 3:1-3 Sigh.. I've gotta get it together.

Day 36

I love lil old church Grandma's.. Tonight I met Nan.. and she's awesome.. kept telling me how pretty I was.. then at the end of church , asked me to tell her about myself.. then as I looked into her eyes, I started crying.. she said, she could look into my eyes, and see a deep sadness. then she pulled Christian over to pray with us.. I could feel the anointing as they laid hands and agreed in prayer.. Then when she prayed for me, she pulled out that lonely bit, along with, being stripped down.. it was a lot but good. GOD IS SOVEREIGN..

There are so many things that I just DO NOT KNOW..and I am finally just going to say it.

I DON"T KNOW..what's next.. what I'm supposed to do.

but what I do know , is that I'm God's Daughter, and He loves me, and He KNOWS>. and I have to just really TRUST Him..and Learn how to LOVE others..

Goodnight..

Day 35

So today I had a really good conversation with an old friend of mine. I was sharing with him the things that the Lord is saying and doing, the crap within me that HE's been revealing..and How i used to struggle with being controlling.. he interrupted after i yapped for a while.. "well, my time with you , I wouldn't say you were controlling" .. and that made me think.. hmm.. maybe I'm using the worn word.. he was like...it was something..but I'm not sure if it was "control".. so we sat and reflected a while.. then it came out.. I had a "trust" issue.. i didn't trust People.. so i would like to control the situation..bc i didn't trust them to follow through, or to do their part.. I think it wasn't only people, that I've had trust issues with... As i process this.. it's all coming back to the fact that GOD IS SOVEREIGN>.and I've got to REALLY believe that.. and TRUST HIm.. that's why i try to hold onto stuff.. bc of TRUST issues.. but I'm claiming the VICTORY..and I've Already seen the Lord's hand in it.. that crap is breaking off!
Thank you Jesus!

this hasn't been my life favorite verse for nothing..i don't think its a coincidence..

Proverbs 3: 5-6

Trust in the Lord , with all your heart, and Lean not on your own understanding , in all your ways, acknowledge HIm, and he will direct your paths.

earlier, i was online - on craigslist looking for a jambe.. and found a keyboard for 20 bucks.. i figure ..if i have a keyboard downstairs.i will actually practice everyday..bc if i get in too late..i can't get on the piano.. so I got all the way out Glenburnie... only to find..they tried it..right before i got there..and the durn thing didn't work anymore.. so they gave it to me for free..

then i prayed with them for their baby, they had had two miscarriages.. so the trip wasn't a total loss.. shucks...that was probably why i went out there .. God knows.. anywho..

Got back ont is side.. picked up some corn, romaine lettuce, no sugar added 100% Grapefruit Juice raw cashews and .. then went to home Depot, and got some particle board, and wood..to PAINT ON!

oh Glory.. the Joy of the Lord is my Strength!

HE'S SOVEREIGN..

11:30 . deuces!

Day 34

Praise God for my struggles!

like.. wow.. I get it.. no need to feel sorry for myself.. ohhh woe is me.. why does God discipline me so? why do I have to beat my flesh daily.. oh woe is me.. why am I pushing so hard, to try to do right? ohhh woe woe woe..

chuckle at least I'm struggling, and not wallowing in the filth.. I praise God becasue He saved me, and He keeps

Praise Jesus..
Have a good day

Prayer tonight was awesome.. felt very FREE.. Even broke out into a spoken word vibe, Joshua started free-styling, i think even beat boxing at one time, but it was incredibly anointed and powerful..so Good..

" I want to sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand, lay back against you and breath hear your heart beat, this love is so deep, its more than I can stand, I melt at your feet, it's overwhelming."

Like really , I DO want to.. and I shall..

i love Unity in the Spirit..
goodnight.

Day 33

so..
this weekend was alot...

Friday was awesome.. we checked out the Justice House of Prayer JHOP for the first time.. it was a great experience. The bible does say to pray for the authority in the land, and we did. Afterward me and the ladies, went on a treasure hunt.. It really is amazing how the Lord will give you clues, and if you just follow Him,and His leading, you will find the treasure.. this was quite the experience..and nothing is silly or ridiculous..if you get a verse that you don't understand..just write it down..and watch him unfold his plan for your evening through scripture.. so awesome!

Saturday Morning.. I slept in.. (this is becoming a pattern)
Then my big brother Perry took my sister Chanali and I to the Sight and Sound Theatre to see the story of Joseph! believe it or not.. that was my first time..and what an awesome experience..to see the scriptures come to life like that, without that much wavering from the scriptures..was amazing..I was weeping throughout.. God's word is awesome..and Joseph's steadfastness.. i could see his human side, and how he had to fight his flesh through out , but he kept passing those test man!..and "stood upright" for Christ.

Saturday night, i wrote in my journal how I was feeling..
(See below)
How do I feel right now... very ALONE... I feel very alone in this walk right now.. wich is odd because i really do have a great community, i have friends, both brothers and sisters that the Lord has placed around me, to sharpen me and love, care, and pray for each other.. But the reality of how i feel right now is very alone" Perhaps that's how I'm supposed to feel. I'm soley clinging on to the Lord right now.. I feel like he's the only permanent factor in these equations.. Even some of my closest friendships have been tested and tried lately...and I don't always have faith that both sides will fight to keep it, yah know? but God... At the end of the day.. i Love Him more.. so I'm just trusting, that he teach me how to Love, and that His love, is what keeps the relationships I have going... PErhaps this ALONE feeling, is because the reality of it is, that i AM alone on this journey..and no one has ever walked it before ..simply because it's MY journey.. and it's UNIQUE.. Go d even disciplines me, the way that I , ASHLEy needs it.. it's crazy..

LAtely I've felt discouraged, at how easily distracted i can be sometimes... like SERIOUSLY> the most challenging thing, I'm finding in life has been to STAY focused on God Alone.. I was very heavy hearted about this and I prayed and asked the Lord for a word.. so i let my bible open randomly and stuck my finger in there.. and it landed on the verse.. Psalm 27
then i read the verses I had previously underlined..and it blessed my soul!

Psalm 27:1
The lord is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life--

:4
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek, that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.

:8
My Heart says of you, "seek his face! Your face LORD I will seek.

:14 Wait for the Lord be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

These verses really ministered to me in that broken moment, and my tears dried up immediately.. I prayed the prayer.. One thing I ask O Lord, and this one thing I seek.. and at the end.. it instructs.. WAIT FOR THE LORD.. BE STRONG and TAKE HEART and WAIT for the LORD.. so LORD .. I shall WAIT for you .. :) I love you!


Sunday Morning.. I slept in..
then the Lord woke me up.. i don't remember the rest of my dream before this, but I don't think i'll ever forget this part..
i heard this incredibly loud ringing and a voice say "Wake up and answer the call!"

then i jumped up and there was no phone ringing.. just me looking around my empty room, wondering what that meant.

I think it's time to stop turning over, and get to business..yah know.. WAKE UP.. no more fantasy world...Time is running out.

so yeah.. that's about it. oh yeah.. this was said Saturday night and it stuck with me.. and i have a whole new way of looking things.. check it out.. he said..

" a casual approach to the prophetic word will cause unnecessary casualties."

no more doing just enough to get by.. from now on, I'm trying to be obedient to the T.. this laid back stuff, letting this slide and that.. not trying to be legalistic or anything, but, for me.. i desire to do things as if for the Lord.. i said.. i was going to go without sweets..and yet was still drinking drinks with sugar..eating raisins and super sweet dried fruits. and sugary smoothies. there is a higher standard, that I'm trying to stand for.. no more cutting corners..it's may seem silly, but it's a reflection on how I've handled God's instructions and words in the past. The Lord told me to eat tomatoes..lol its a crazy example..but for me it's true.. and he even told me to stop talking on the phone while driving..

one common theme, i'm noticing with how the Lord disciplines me..it's usually pretty abrupt and clear boundaries are always drawn.. which apparently i need.. (sigh)

and here's another it's 12:31 1 minute over my computer time.. goodnight

Day 30

JOY!

1 Peter 1: 6-9

In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have comeso that your faith of greater worth than gold , which perishes even though refined by fire - may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when jesus Christ i revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him, and even though you you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressabl and glorius joy, for you recieveing the goal of your faith, the salvation of your sins!

Day 29

RAW - TIP

"juicing" make sure you brush or at least rinse after drinking juice..the sugar can eat away at your teeth.. I had a dentitst appt. today, and almost had to get a root canal.. and gum issues..not saying the juice was the issue, but it probably contributed to some of the decay.. it's so important to floss you guys :) .. I need to practice the discipline of flossing..aloing with my spiritual diciplines..

I think i's so Awesome , how the Lord will show you things, if you just pay attention!

Don't believe the hype yall.. the new buzz words in christianity are " Spirit lead" and 'prophetic" , well the proof is in the pudding, that's all i've got to say.. Everything that calls itself prophetic ain't., seemingly the less we put all the labels on things, the closer we can get to the way God intended for them to be. go figure. oh and , saying it's time to put " new wine, in new wine skins" is out of context if you are supporting the name change of a church. smh.. we can go to all the the conference e want, and listen to all of the messages, and have all the resources,and higher the best people, and take all the classes, to see how to do something.. But if it's not TRULY SPirit, Lead... meaning, your vision came from God, and He is continually unfolding it, as you walk and trust Him, how authentic can it really be. < just venting> ( I might delete this later)

It made me look at myself.. Ashley... Are you just using the buzz words? are you falling into the hype..or are you pressing in to The Lord, and doing what you need to do to hear and have your won encounter. everyone's formula don't work for you.. You have to listen..because he has some specific instructions for YOU! and getting quiet.. and asking the questions, is proving to help with this, I believe.

It's all about loving God.. I drew this diagram/visual thingy today..and it's really helping me see, how real it is.. if Lover;s of Jesus, will Love God.. and focus on looking upward, we won't have to focus on the people, and winning them so much, if we Love God, then His love will overflow, and the people that we are called will receive Love, because of our Loving God.. but the kicker is this. what they are experiencing from you ..isn't YOUR love..it's Gods! you are just the vessel, so if we pour our energy into pursuing God's face, His Heart, our heart will then begin to become like his heart, and his heart Loves people..HIS Love is what they will see.. and they intern will praise our father in heaven.. i love it, I love this cycle.. but we won't loose our focus. When ever we take our eye off of God.. we've lost our focus. PERIOD and that is a dangerous place to be.

Day 28

Glory to God!

To Him who sits on the Throne, and Unto the Lamb... This Son was in my Spirit this morning as I pulled up to the office today. Be blessed.



God is simply amazing..

I was reading 1 Peter 1 last night, and this blessed me so much. How jesus was chosen to be a lamb for our ransom even before teh earth was created.. like .. what!? What kind of love is that.. I can't even comprehend it.

20 He was chosen before the creation of th eworld, but was revealed in these last times for your sake. 21 through him you believe in god, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God.

Day 28

Glory to God!

To Him who sits on teh Throne, and Unto the Lamb... This Son was in my Spirit htis morning as I pulled up to the office today. Be blessed.

God is simply amazing..

I was reading 1 Peter 1 last night, and this blessed me so much. How jesus was chosen to be a lamb for our ransom even before teh earth was created.. like .. what!? What kind of love is that.. I can't even comprehend it.

20 He was chosen before the creation of th eworld, but was revealed in these last times for your sake. 21 through him you believe in god, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God.

RAW TIP

When making smoothies, a quick convenient and easy way to add your greens, is by blendig frozen spinach. TOnight i had, frozen spinach, strawberries, mixed fruits, tomatoe, and pear smoothie.. added water and sha-wing!

:)

Enjoy!

Also today I found that dried apricots can make you very gassy when eaten in high volume.

Day 27

Great weekend.

Today is was the day that one of my best friends was Born. Oh God I thank you for her life. I thank you for placing us in the same community, and the Love, that you've given us toward each other. Like david and Jonathan we always say.. Yoked together.. so awesome.. ! Happy Birthday Chanali I love you so...

So traveling this weekend, I got some good reading time in, which was God. Thank you Lord for your grace. I've got to figure out ,why i get motion sickness in the back seat though, i imagine, with my calling, I'm going to need to ride in the back seat for long periods of time, at some point. So I pray again it, and Lord if you are trying to teach me something through it, please reveal it.

I read the Book of Obadiah and Amos, perhaps for the first time.

Obadiah was cool.. Not to many deep revelations, I think i need to read it a few times over. Speak Lord , Your servant is listening.

Amos, had a strong social justice them it seems. It talked over and over... about living in Excess.. It made me think about American culture..and Even in the Western church, this prosperity gospel teaching.. and how it's now being spread to the other countries..

Amos 3: 8

' The lion has roared who will not fear? The Sovereign Lord has spoken-- who can but prophesy"

I like how he's like this normal dude, not from royalty or anything.. He's a shepherd and gardener.. but, when the Lord speaks..He MUST speak.. like..We MUST.. no option here..

(SONG BREAK) - Thanks for introducing this song to me Joshua :)

You are , my Source of LIfe

I can't be left behind

No one else will do

I will take hold of you

I need you Jesus... I need you Jesus!

to be continued..

Day 24

Help me Lord..

Every time I feel like I'm finally getting it, I start to second guess something, Lord I pray that you show me my heart and my motives.

Is it possible for me to unplug and plug in to Him?

Lord I release control, in Jesus name.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

So I just came back from a beautiful homegoing seervice for one of the saints. it really felt like, my old church, the one I grew up at. And the Word was on point. Glory to God.

Psalm 119: 9-11

2 Thess 5

The Word.. is what keeps us

all of this stuff, is tied together man..

(to be continued)

Day 23

He is Jealous for me.




About 1 1/2 year ago, this song marked a season of MOVEMENT for me. While at the time, the significance of the words, literally shaked the ground I was standing on, since then the Lord has given so much more revelation on such things.


He is Jealous for me.. Like REALLY...


During this Pruning season, He's shown me all of the GOOD things, I've placed before him, and He wants me back. HE want's to be the apple of my eye, my beloved, He wants my FULL attention. And I must say, God.. ahhhh! You've finally got it. NO MORE,... we don't have time.. to keep missing it, to keep being disobedient.. to keep on this path of mediocrity/ permissive christianity He wants it all. HE want us Holy, set apart, He wants us striving, SEEKING, and Worshipping with a pure heart, He want DEVOTION, He wants, INTIMACY, He wants me... He doesn't want my thoughts divided with those things that peas man or my flesh, even the "good" things, HE's Jealous.. and I Get it. There's so much work to be done for you kingdom Lord, thank you for this fire. I expect to come out smoother, better ready to serve ini whatever capacity you'd have me..


Holy = Set Apart

No way we coul dfathom all of who he is. In Jewish culture stating something Three times demonstrates PERFECTION. To say God is Holy Holy Holy = H e is perfectly set apart with nothing and no on to compare Him to.

That is what it means to be Holy.

( Exerpt from Francis Chan's - Crazy Love)

Driving to work this Morning, looking at the over cast sky and listeningto the rain. I couldn't even wrap my head around the truth that Go dis ETERNAL.. he always was and has been,a nd always will be.. All of us were created..that's our reality.. inside of time.

Ecclesiastes 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He also has set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what Go dhas done, from beginning to end.

Day 22

You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go bear fruit---fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. John 15:16

(Sigh) this Morning, I felt like a sluggard. Stop being lazy Ashley, and BE OBEDIENT.

So I was listening to this message by Bill Johnson, and he had an interesting take on God's sovereignty. I must say, at first it sounded borderline heretical. He said that there is a difference from being in charge and being in Control of everything. I hope i can find the clip..so you can check it out, and share your thoughts.


.. to be continued

Day 21

so, today...

I went back to the church that I had been serving at for the past 2 years.. and yes, this is the same church he released me from about a month and a half ago. But I felt lead to go today, and to pray.. and join them for bible study tonight. And I did, and it was cool.

I got a chance to speak to one of the members for about an hour actually.. Now this brother has some type of "disability" where he can't speak clearly, or communicate, and sometimes he can't control other voluntary functions of the body. Now , when I first started attending the church, his speaking, and writing, seemed to be improving.. but over time, it seemed to have declined. Now this young man, loves the Lord, and is extremely devout. I've actually learned quite alot about diligence from this brother.. (okay that's my background info)

So today, I attempted to communicate with him.. Through out the entire conversation.. I was praying for him, and even laying on hands.. praying for healing, praying he be able to speak and that I'd b eable to understand, praying for interpretation..and at one point, as I layed hands on him, he began to speak, in pretty choppy, but clear sentences..then it would trail off into a mumble. But we started a conversation about Jesus. And I asked Him, if he believed that Jesus could heal him.. he said, yes , God is a healer. And God can Heal. But when I asked Him if he believed that he could be healed, he said "no". So I asked him why, and he said," no because I'm not sick. If I had the flu or a cold, God heal me God can heal. But then have to wait on the Lord.. "

Hmmm ... I just wonder..

So after that we read some of the stories with Jesus Healing in the bible, the deaf and mute man, the woman with an issue of blood, and I asked him again. HE said no. So I'm praying the Holy Spirit Give him understanding, of Jesus' power. I don't say this pridefully or anything.. but what happens, when he prays the prayer, for himself.. believing that Jesus can heal him. I hope we get to find out one day. I believe the Lord, wants to heal him :) Have your way Lord. Let his testimony bring millions to repentance.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

1 Peter 1: 15

But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16 for it is written: " Be Holy, because I am Holy."

Holy = set apart

The Bible says, they will know that we are christians by our LOVE..

so if it's love that distinguishes us.. it's love that set's us apart.

and this is an act of Holiness

then the only way we can truly Love is by the Spirit.

and the only way we can be HOly, is through His righteousness, bc our righteousness is like filthy rags, so that's by living by the Spirit..

so ultimately, the only way to e obedient to Jesus is through the SPirit, and to love is through the SPirit, and to be Holy is through the SPirit.. oo wee ..thank you Lord for the gift of Your Holy Spirit.. We'd literally be Lost with out him.

IRON - make sure you are eating these

I"ve been feeling really cold lately, and somethign is telling me I need more iron in my diet.

When going raw, it's important to make sure you are getting alot of these in your diet. I'm learning, I can't simply eat what i like. Must add soome variety. Turnip greens ar epretty spicy, and have a bite, but they are green and leafy therefore a great source of Iron, wich is important when guarding against anemia.

Vegetables -

• Green leafy such as broccoli,
• green cabbage
• kale
• spinach
• watercres

Fruit

• Oranges
• Grapefruit
• Guavas
• Paw paw
• kiwi

Dried Fruits

• Apricots
• Prunes
• Raisins

Nuts

Salad Vegetable contain Vitamin C and hhelp the body absorb iron

• Tomatoes ( go figure!)

Day 20

So, Yesterday. During prayer, I felt like I did when I was in that dream that I was in Haiti. I looked down, and I was topless... EXPOSED. This is a very vulnerable place. Tonight, I went to the Regional Prayer Meeting, and felt this release, while we prayed, for the city, and nation... and for ourselves... as soldiers. Lord, raise up Your soldiers to take on the battle, you've empowered us. I feel like, the deeper I go, the harder cry out, the more and more of my crap, is in there.. the more of my flesh is in there.. like.. geez.. still more Lord. We pray, Lord empty me.. but I never realized just How much of ME is in the mix.

I just want to be completely... POURED OUT .. for real.. like.. I don't want to do things anymore, jut because I'm supposed to. I want my responses to be REAL authentic heart responses.. I want my action to truly be motivated by Love. The love of the FATHER.. to push me to Love through action..

Right now I feel like I purged a whole lot (that I didn't even know was there) I'm wondering how much more.. but it's a strength that I can feel, like, letting go of that stuff, built me up.. it's weird but I like it.

The Lord has really been dealing with me abou t worship. Worshipping in Spirit and in truth. Tonight, I lead worship with some of my friends, and it was awesome. during practice, I could feel the Spirit soooo heavy like, literally weighing on me.., but its crazy how much of a press it was, while we were in front of people .. the enemy was busy.. How do we get COMPLETELY free from that .. performance, showy, religious stuff..yah know ?

I've been blessed to have so much Godly community, The Lord is really showing me, the variety of believer's that I'm connected to. It's such a blessing... and each week, there are more women, He's sending to pour into me. It's so exciting. What will tomorrow hold?

Day 19

This Word really helped me today! Thanks Lord..

John 15: 1-2

1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.

I am in a season of Pruning, (it's CUTTING with a sharp object) and it hurts! like I didn't realize how much of my life was intertwined, and I couldn't see.. even before , I believe the Lord has told me it was time to be pruned. Thank God for His grace, sometimes I am disobedient, because I don't understand why... Like I couldn't comprehend it. How can something that is bearing such good visible fruit need to be cut... ?? it's good right? What I found, that there were some places that were overgrown, and out of order. So the Lord is now pruning my branches.. even though they were already bearing fruit.. just look at His word.. this is how it's supposed to work.

Today, I encountered a decision that had to be made, which resulted in many tears... but God. He even showed me, how he had arranged thing ahead of time... to be accomplished even before my plans were changed. But it's like, Ashley, when are you going to get it?.. it's REALLY not about Your plans baby..

Tonight during prayer, I could literally feel the Lord circumcising my heart.. and I weeped.. I weeped for the nation, for the city, for my lost family and friends, for the condition of the church, for the reality of the things going on around them, that I'm normally numb to. Like thank you Lord, I'm tired of having a hard heart so often. It's time for the walls to be rebuilt...it's time for the gates to be fixed. NO MORE forsaking the Lord, no more digging of my own cisterns. (Jer 2:13)

Then, not to mention..

I'm a cryer, "a weeper" as Tifany would say. I's time to be skillful in the crying.. (Jer 9:17) some situations need wailing women. the condition of the city, needs us.

So no more, not being able to feel.. I desire truly for a broken heart.. I want sooo much to be able to FEEL all the time. And yet be strong, yah know? Lord, birth a love motivation behind everything I do. Teach me how to pray.. In Jesus Name.. Amen

-Goodnight

Day 18

My sister Danielle is an anointed woman of God! What an Awesome time we had today, of sharing and community.. I LOVE Her, I'm so blessed... Grandma Hazel is a trip, so so strong and prayerful, my family is full of cryers. It's amazing how much release you get from shedding tears, I especially enjoy it, when they are motivated by Joy, and Love.. Congratulations Errin, I pray you have a Christ centered marriage.

Today I was reflecting on so many things...

His banner over me is LOVE... Goodnight.

Day 17 - God's Grace

This morning, I had a victory.

The last few days, the Lord has really been speaking,and revealing the REALITY of so many hidden places in my life. He showed me, how I'm disobedient, and How important and VITAl my obedience is to my being able to serve the Kingdom.

I'm so excited about this season.. I feel the presence of the Lord , when I wake up in the Morning, and feel I can feel His strength...

This morning, I was sharing what the Lord has been teaching me about obedience with my mom and she made a face and then a half comment... and then I almost shut down. (which is what I would have done normally) I was on the verge of being offended, and blocking off the lines of communication completely with her, which would have resulted in having to release and process it all later.. but the Lord showed me the lie of the enemy, and I was able to expose that thing. I said " you know what, I'm choosing not to be offended, I feel like the devil is working, and i really want to share the things the Lord is imparting into me." and that automatically cleared up the atmosphere. We then had a 30 minute conversation, that was awesome.... we were open and honest.and we were able to sharpen each other, and encourage, and delight in the Lord together.. It was sooo good!

2 Peter 1:2-4 Grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord, as His divine power has given to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him who called us by glory and virtue, by which have been given to us exceedingly great and precious promises, that through these you may be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.

Day ?? - I should figure this out right?

SO my attempt to Blog everyday has been a major FAIL! But I'm sill here.. Hopefully this get's more consistent. So much has happened since we've last convened.

A Number of Dreams I've had, since the beginning of this.. (which I will start to share on here!) My brother started blogging his, to record them,and check for common strands etc. and I thought to myself, that's a really great idea.. yippee!!! lol

Oh, and it dawned on me last night, during my quiet time... the Lord has been literally ORDERING my steps lately.. like He loves me that much.. to give me physical consequence for disobedience... like He won't let me sin in this area. for a while I was complaining about it. But when He revealed that it was discipline,and how he disciplines, those he loves.. I saw the miracle ! It's crazy.. I guess I should start from the beginning bc you guys don't have any idea what I'm talking about! lol

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TOMATO STORY HERE

so about 3 months ago, during a prayer meeting, I got a word that said " eat tomatoes, it will help your skin" at this point, I thought this was incredibly random. i tried it for a few days, but stopped, and said bump this..i don't care about my skin this much, these things are nasty. so I let it go and forgot about it.

Last week, I'm sitting here.. and my face is on fire!! I don't know why..it's just burning out of no where.. Two days of this, and I'm crying out to my firends and family to please pray.. please pray, i don' tknow what's going on. That evening, I asked Joshua, to pray for me, then he says.. wait.. didn't you get a word about tomatoes? like eat tomatoes for you skin or something?" I was like.. OMG!!! wow! yes.. I did.. now it's getting late, and I look in the fridge, of course i don't have any tomatoes, because I hate them! lol! anywho, I try to lay down.. can't do it. I'm in too much pain. I get up , it's now 1 AM and I get inthe car, ad drive to the grocery store. I caom ehome, eat 3 bites of the tomatoe, my face stops burning. I go right to sleep. The next morening, I wake up , my face is on fire, I eat some tomatoes, no more burning. Day 3, no burning, all day.. I get ready for bed, night before I go to sleep, my face starts burning.. like really? are you serious? I eat som etomatoes.. the burning stops. So i reason, wow, I have to eat tomatoes everyday, or else my face burns. It's seemed so trivial right?

I was actually almost complainig about it for a while..till the Lord showed me. the vese in proverbs 3: 12

Do not despoise the Lord's discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.

like..wait. The Lord isn't letting me be disobedient!! wow! Like, I pray Lord guide my feet, order my steps..and He's actually doing it through a physical manifestiation. How cool is that!? HE Loves me so much, that he corrects me the way I NEED so that I will get it! I LOVE HIM! ahhh!

(to be continued)

DREAM - 9-22-2010

I was in this room..somewhere.. it was real dusty outide like Haiti or something.. but the room looked, like that room in the bottom of the tabernacle, at camp middlesex.. but everyone looked like there were in America.. like how they dressed, etc.. Joshua was talking about , what if he got hurt..or saying that he got hurt.. somebody had a hurt foot.. so maybe that was him.. I'mnot sure.. but we were waiting for these old missionaries or something to speak.. and people were settign up chairs in the room..like it was Jon Sothern, Rob Herbert, Damus, and Marcus I think.. setting up chairs in this room,a nd Joshua and I were sitting up front..kind of like we were when we did the talk with the kids... I think like the kids at Monroe..but they were big chairs..

At somepoint, I was alittle annoyed becasue someon ate allof my fruity mints.. (random) so.. there were people who came in.. to talk to us, or the seasoned missionary..not certain..but they were trying to get information on how to be different,and we were listening to see how we could support and empower them. Then I heard the word. DEFECTOR LOVE, DEFECTOR CHRISTIAN... DEFECTOR CHRISTIANITY...

it was like a safe house, for defector christians...

So I woke up like defector? what's that? so I thought about defector..when someone is in like a communist country..and seeking refuge in a free country. .

a defector christian..is one turning away from this false chistianity that been taught , going back to biblical christianity I think.. and we were equipping them.

Day 9

So.. the Lord told me to read the book of Luke today...

It's crazy, so many thing stuck out, that I NEVER noticed before.. (it blows my mind how that happens , when you read the word man.)

So I'm reading in Luke 1:45 " Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished."

This verse REALLY blessed me.. LIke, I know in the bible, when things are directed to men, often ..we as women can claim them. and embrace them.. bc it was to a crowd, and in language masculine words can be for everyone.. But here.. it's exhorting women.. and it encouraged me..

For along time, I struggled with doubting, when i heard specific things from the Lord.. partially I believe because I am a woman, and I am surrounded by some very powerful men of God , who hear prophetically from the Lord. And it was (at one time) pretty intimidating... so, I'd second guess things.. But the Lord DOES speak to me..and He shares things with me..and I am to cherish and treasure them.. and believe them .. believe that what H said will be accomplished .will be..

and as I kept reading. a word given to me by one of my Spiritual mothers this week, was to be carful who i cast my pearls to.. Luke 2:19 - and MAry treasured up all these thinfs and pondered them in her heart..

yes..there are some things we are to share.but it's just as important to listen, and pay attention to the things we are supposed to keep in and treasure and ponder.. :) it might not be yet their time to be revealed..and if there is any question..why not wait till the Lord revealed them yah know.?

God bless you all . and to all a goodnight!

Day 8

More..

Silence and Solitude..

I saw this beautiful picture..Jonathan Edwards gave a beautiful example of Silence and solitude.. I read this today in the book " Spiritual Disciplines of the Christian Life"

... According to Jonathan Edwards, this was a secret of the Godliness of his wife, Sarah. In his first record of her, penned while his future wife was still a teenager, he wrote, " She hardly cares for anything, except to meditate on Him... She loves to be alone, walking in the fields and groves, and seems to have someone invisible always conversing with her."

what a beautiful place to be!

I realized, how hard it is for me to get quiet.. like, there is something keeping from being alone in the secret place.. My aim is to fight it, no matter what, and press in .. Following Jesus Example.. I have to go to the solitary place..

Day 7

Okay, so this blogging everyday thing, REALLY is alot harder than I thought it would be.

But God is Sovereign...

My struggle these past few days has been consitency, and dilegence in my seeking. I desire to be more engulfed in the Word. Perhaps, I'm going to cut some of the more social aspects of my life down for this season. We shall see. So all weekend, I had this song in my head and the Lord told me to dance to it! check out the Lyrics

" who taught the sun, where to sit, in the morning,

and who told the ocean, you can only come this far,

and who told the moon, where to hide to evening,

who's words alone can catch a falling star?"

I KNOW.. MY REDEEMER LIVES!!!

Seeking out the truth about FAITH, and what it is.. Im learning and seeing, how important this word literally is, in regards to MY FAITH.. to my salvation.. to my confidence in Christ.. I made a list FAITHLESS vs. FAITHFUL..and relaly just asked the Lord to teach me about what it means to be both. I read Hebrews 11.. and in the first two verses it plainly tells you what FAITH is.. Faith is being SURE and CERTAIN.. there's NO room for doubt when it comes to faith.. I've been praying against my always seeking confirmation and validation through other people. I find it ahard sometimes to stand on my own convictions about things, while at the same time, I have this Hard outer shell, that goes hard, and can even be confrontational at times.. Hebrews 11: 2 .. By faith we understand that th universe was formed ar God's command, so tha what is seen was not made out of what is visible. That's HUGE, to really walk in the understanding that what is around us, was not made or birthed by some material God made it. and it even takes FAITH to believe that..

The next verse that stuck out to me was 2 Peter 1: 5 .. For hti svery reason, make every effort to add to you faith, goodness and to goodness knowledg, and to knowledge self control...

ADD to YOUR FAITH... you can't ADD to somethign you don't have.. This verse offers a guard against falling, liek.. this is how you can stand, and you ADD to the faith you have. Faith is like a muscle, it grows and it get's stronger. we can BUILD ontop of it.

What does it mean to TRULY rely on GOD? Will I pray the Prayer, Lord.. I ONLY want to rely on you ..Or LORD build my faith.. it' scrazy.. and yes, i prayed the prayer, but to think.. who knows how that specific prayer wil be answered.. it will probably mean harder times, some type of pruning, some type of struggle, that pushes me to that place. But I want ot be like Paul, who delighted in the hardships, and counted it a priveledge to be persecuted fo rthe Gospel.. How does someone really get to THAT point..a place of beign Wrecklessly abandoned.. I LOVE that phrase. right, it's sounds like a real christian..yah know.?? But it's like how do I REALLY get there?

uh oh . I can feel the itch.. I NEED TO PAINT.. Hopefully I will be able to post something soon.. Love you and thank you for your prayers.. Please continue to lift up CLAY..COmplete Healing..nd if you know a prayer warrior, and if you are one, please come into agreement,and cry out on behalf of this young man..

Day 3

Last night, I has an awesome time, in bibles study with Ruth. I truly believe the Lord has placed her in my life, for such a time as this. It's something about it, like, it's biblical , that the older woman pour into the younger. While we are both pursuing Christ, different personalities etc. But our desire is the same. Her humility, and her testimony of the Lord being the "Lover of her soul" so beautiful. Like, I truly desire to experience that, and I realized that yesterday. I've never quite gotten there. There are days when I'd wake up smitten by him, and giggly, and in Love. But to wake every morning, and anticipate, coming into the presence of a Lover, who is there, waiting for me.

So that was my plan, last night I was to Go Home, lay before the Lord, and experience an enchanting time in His presence. I came home, and shared with my family, my experience at the call, and realized that testimony was part of my evenings purpose. Finally get to my room,and take a shower, and am EXHAUSTED. I take time, to write down the prayer request, of my friends and family, then went through the list, crying out and interceding. But after my time in prayer, I passed out. I don't even remember going to sleep. And When i woke up this morning, i was a little flustered, because I had missed the prayer call and was running late for work. Then the Lord spoke to me. "Keep it simple." it was crazy, I didn't really know what it meant. But this overwhelming peace came over me this morning, as I began to prepare to leave for work.

When I got in the car, i finished listening to this message on " Mary of Bethany" - Jessica Willard, It's really ministered to me, over the past few years, constantly. Every time I listen to it, something new is highlighted. But it really spoke to me this morning, when i got the word " keep it simple".

Deuteronomy 6:5

Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.

Love me wholly in everything you do.. Keep it simple..

Day 2

So, I already missed one day of Blogging (sigh)...

Judges 19, was shared with me earlier by the lovely Ms. Chanali, and it stuck out very strongly. I actually had looked at that verse not too long ago, and the gruesome picture of the levite literally cutting up his concubine who had been killed and shipping her body parts to the different houses of Israel. How come, every time Israel is without a king, they act CRAZY! The thing is, they were ALWAYS with a KING, the Lord..

Today was the first time,

I've ever been excited about FREE SALAD

at the office..

crazy huh!? but I tore it up.

14 day's going hard after God's Heart.. I found, that this is something that he continues to reveal, constantly. Lately I've been touched by the Sex trafficking sermons, and conversations. God's heart Breaks for that. A loveless Church, God's heart breaks for that. Apathetic Disciples, God's heart Breaks for that. What are the things that I do, which causes God's heart to break.

I say that I desire for everything I do to be motivated by love.. so the things I choose not to do, is it because I'm not loving as I should?

When I pray a prayer for MORE faith, and a prayer for humility.. Why is it that I begin to second guess and worry about whether or not I really mean that prayer? Do I really desire to go DEEPER in God? If so then why is it that I can spend 7 hours outside of work with friends, discussing the woes of the world and the kingdom, and not spend 20 minutes with Him.

As I've been " pursuing" God's heart, He's been revealing my own heart, and ultimately how FAR from His it is. it's utterly Heartbreaking...

I've really got to get my priorities straight, please come into agreement with me on this prayer.

Thanks.

100 Days RAW - John 14:15

I Don't want to get into all of the details of, WHY , I was told to do this... but all I know is that I was. I'm a little nervous because this is a huge commitment, and I hate breaking covenant, especially with the Lord, and I must say, this will probably be one of the greatest challenges i've faced in my life. Lord give me Grace, to be faithful till the end! - In Jesus Name Amen

During this Journey, I will be primarily seeking MORE...

I desire for my FAITH to Be Increased. Psalm 101:3

I want everything I do to be motivated from a place of LOVE in my heart.

I need to MEMORIZE more of God's Word, so that I will have weapon to fight the battles that are before me now along with those to come.

I want to FINISH reading the Old Testament (I've already started, but need to finish)

I want to be a life poured out, which means EMPTY of pride and self righteousness.

I'm seeking more specific DIRECTION.

Along with my personal goals during this fast, I will be interceding for and lifting up Clay for his complete healing of cancer (Histiocytic Sarcoma.).

Myself along with nearly 50 others will be agreeing in prayer on this,

and petitioning on his behalf.

If you are a fellow believer, Please pray for Clay.

Throughout the next few months, I will be posting any research or findings about going RAW as well, along with recipes of things I like and dislike.

SO...Let's try this again.

Here we Go..

I can't sleep, and I need to write my Spiritual Journey..

WHERE DO I BEGIN!?

www.starvingforJesus.blogspot.com

I realized, I won't actually blog on here, everyday.. but I will be responding to the blogs posted on this site.. www.starvingforjesus.blogspot.com

be blessed

30- Hour Famine Baltimore!

What an Awesome Weekend!


Our kids gave up food, for 30 hours, in an effort to raise money Missions in Haiti. Such a great time.

"Open the Flood Gates of Heaven, let it rain..."

God put a PAUSE on the scheduled rain, until 6 pm, after the famine.. forcast was beautiful, and the FlOODGATES POURED OUT in the Spirit over us the entire weekend. Strongholds were broken, and children gave their lives to the Lord. Ahhhh!!! He blows my mind eveytime.

Collosians 3:17

And whatever you do, whether in Word or Deed, do it all in the name of our Lord Jesus, Giving thanks to God the Father through Him.

We don't do ANYTHING in our own strength.... its all through God. He strengthens, He sustains, He provides, He restores.. He instucts, He leads, He keeps, He helps, He fills, He pours, He loves..


Over and Over, He keeps revealing, how there are no Formulas, man.. the Formula is Listenig to Him.. PRAY...PLAN... PREP.. and be open to Him changing things up, as He so desires.

Ah!! I love it. :)

click here to check out a video of this past weekend:

Living by the Spirit feels so Good..

So.. yesterday, I felt the joy of the Lord.. ALL day long.. from the drive into work, throughout the work day, till I got back on the road, to drive in to B-More for Bible study... For whatever reason, I didn't want to get there early, so I took my time. Called a home girl on the phone, had a great conversation. Its something about connecting with the kingdom of God, the more you get to know about them, the more you start to connect the dots, and really just stand in awe of what the Lord has graced to you see..a glimpse of his plan. so awesome!

I pulled up to the church, and one of our girls "T" startled me.. I was like, hey lady..what's up.. so she started talking about all this stuff, it was so cool though.. really just flowing in the moment.. then she reminded me that I was supposed to walk with her to raise money for the 30-Hour Famine, which is this weekend.. so she begged me, "Sis. Ashley can you please take me home, so I can get my packet, and get some sponsors". So I take her and her sister to the house, they grab the packet, and we head back tot he block the church is on. so we get back, and start going through it.. What's going on on Friday.. what are you giving up food for..who? I was like, these are questions people will have for you. what will you tell them? so while we were going through it, she see's "Mr. Jeff" walking around the corner eating a chicken box.. so in mid sentence T jumps out of the car..Mr. jeff.. you gonna sponsor me for 30 hour famine? the girl, can hustle let me tell you..bc she didn't really even know how to explain it thoroughly, I helped a tiny bit...but she charmed him..let me tell you! lol! you had to be there.. but thats all she needed..that confidence builder and a little support, and she blossomed. My pastor has a discipleship method which is simply tis. just do life with the kids.. and at this moment, i saw a glimpse of how true that is.. :) Be christian around them, even if it means just taking a drive up the street, or they go with you to get some detergent.. Jesus did life with the disciples.

After I sent the girls to tackle the rest of the block while the sun was still out, I headed into the church. I came in, and they were discussing something, so I walked in the back, and hugged one of my church grandma's carried out a light convo.. then felt and urge, that I should come back out to the sanctuary.. I walked through the door, and they elected me, to lead a few songs in worship. So I was obedient an d we began to sing..and let me tell you.. I could feel the Spirit , just clear up the atmosphere..it was AWESOME>.. Ahhhh!! it taste good..

After we prayed.. and the lesson was on Titus 2. great word... its funny how the word still stands today man..

A New Season!

Well, Family... those of you that know me, know I can be loud, confrontational, and love being around people! Those of you that REALLY know me, know that I've struggled with Hiding things for a large part of my life. Praise the Lord for Prayer, Godly Council, Accountability, and transperancy in community, I've seen this stronghold begin to break! Still, I find it can still be hard for me to speak up. There are so many things that I'm thinking, that the Lord has shown me, and even simple random thoughts, yet I feel like Moses sometimes, and even when I know it's a word from the Lord, I lose my words! But I am no longer claiming that.

A few months back, The Lord used a friend of mine to give me a word, and this was it. You ready??? SHARE. What does that mean? Like it really puzzeld me... Afte he said it, I was like.. ummm.. (Awkward silence) I know I'm supposed to share, I've been taught that since I was a little girl, if someone is hungry I share what I have to eat, if they are cold, I share my covers... Like, it really took me back, because I would intentionally try to give, and not be pretentious right. That's what real christians do right? Of course, He wants us to share, but I could tell it was much DEEPER than that!

What did the Lord mean when He told me Ashley to SHARE. It was much deeper than material things, this past season has been one of revelation, teaching, and ohhh soo much growth! He's removed so many of the religious veils that were hindering my walk, my worship, and He continues to break them down even as we speak. He desires FREEDOM in WORSHIP.. in Spirit and in Truth... ah!! And the Golden Nuggets, unless he says not to SHARE it, we must SHARE!!! Revelations, understanding.. We were made for His Glory! Created to WORSHIP Him, in all that we are..everything that we have... so so much!

Okay, so with ALLLL of that said, I need your help! Help me to stay accountable, and to practice boldness and to bind fear. God has not given us a spirit of Fear but of Power, Love and Self-Disicpline. So as this year, 2010, has been a year of Prayer and Consecration..and DISCIPLINE. I will practice (among other things) the discipline of journaling and sharing. Ah ! Obedience is sooo much better than sacrifice. (sigh) so I must add, and PAINTING. stay tuned, I will be SHARING that too.. shucks, I have to DO it to SHARE it, so I'm putting it in the atmosphere. if you don't see anything posted soon , GET ON ME! It's A NEW SEASON, no more hiding, no more FEAR, no more shrinking back.

(Chuckle)
I think that's all for now..

Oh yeah!

I'm so excited about this fast that myself and some of other believers will be embarking on beginning May 1, 2010.

http://www.starvingforjesus.blogspot.com/

Check it out, if you are interested in joining us send me an e-mail. ahaley48@yahoo.com . we will forward you a packet! ah!! so excited.